Grief

  Grief for us all is different. Different stages, different outlooks, different ways of moving through it. It is so different for us all - each of us has a different path that we follow to grieve. Yet, I feel, it is all the same.
  The same because we all deeply miss this One who has moved on.

  I wonder (a lot more lately, having children and all. And boy do they wake up that wonder in you) why, if it is all ultimately the "same" is it so hard?  Hard in the ways of communicating?  Communicating to each other. Communicating the pain, hurt, loneliness and anger that goes hand in hand with grief.


  I wonder why then, do we all just expect each other to know where each of us is in our grief - to expect we are exactly where you, or you may be.  Or maybe, not even being able to look outside of our own grief to realize what we all may be going through - assumption I suppose.
Assuming, maybe that he or she may have all the support they need, so why impede?  Impede on their own journey of grief. Even though, ultimately, I feel, we all do want just some acknowledgement. Acknowledgement of the loss, very different for each of us because she was there for all of us in different ways - but, ultimately the same. We all feel the passing on of life on different degrees, but WE ALL do miss the beautiful lovely being that was and is still Penni.

So, emotional...


Her daughter and friend,

Sarah